Beyond Fear is All That We Are

My sister💜

Throughout my life, I have struggled to overcome fear. The thought of following my heart and what felt right terrified me. I believed something meant for me would not make me feel so afraid. If it was not acceptable to others, then it was not correct. Growing up as an outcast deeply affected me and left me shackled to a cage I'd created in my mind. In this cage, I locked away my gifts and talents. I did not understand that locking away these parts of me was essentially locking away my entire being. Who am I if I am unable to express myself? I am more than just a face. I am more than just my productivity. I am more than what I can do for others.

Over the years, I began to question this fear. I began to question this box I placed myself in due to the perspectives others had of me. I began to ask myself am I truly happy. Is this what love is supposed to feel like? Needing to shackle away parts of me to feel like I belong. After sitting with myself and all I felt, I saw the light in me. I saw my mistakes, and I saw my strengths. I saw that every side, every angle, and every fragment is what made me whole. We constantly have magnifying glasses hovering over parts of us that society told us were incorrect about us. After 26 years, I've learned where we shackle ourselves away is precisely where our power lies.

Society wants us all the same, but our differences are where we truly come together. The Universe is a puzzle; an orchestra. Harmony is created when differences are acceptable and celebrated. I was most unlike myself and lost when I tried my hardest to be the same as everyone else. I survived my earlier years of life by pretending to be like others. What I needed/wanted was community and acceptance. Once I began to accept myself, God sent me people that love me as I am.

I acknowledged that I was creating the world I saw within. I rejected my gifts and talents, therefore others did the same. I wasn't a victim of the world around me. I was the observer and experiencer of the world I felt I deserved to live in. I deserve more now, and so do you.

I felt called to create this post because we regularly forget where our power lies. It never leaves us. It was always our choice to give it away because we could not begin to comprehend just how beautiful and amazing we truly are. The beliefs and projections of others are not my own. It took me a while to recognize the voice of fear was not my own, but the voice of something else. Something that does not want the light in me to shine. Something that fears me figuring out just how limitless I am.

Expansion is nothing to fear. It is everything to embrace.

"Personal growth lies within the unknown; courage permits you to explore this place."- Yogi T. Do not be afraid to face the darkness within you. Through darkness, creation is born.

Forever,

Dej